For a long time I didn't believe in anything. Probably, the first time that changed was when I hit the psychology section of the library. That began years of reading in the area of psychology and psychoanalysis. One psychoanalyst contributed to the beginning of what would be what I believe now.
Going From Unformulated to Formulated Experience
The Native Americans talk about listening to your heart. Donnel Stern told me how to do it, how to find that authentic voice inside myself buried under so much cultural conditioning.
I believe we all possess an authentic voice within us - that is the most individual part of ourselves.
Stern also stressed the importance of the interpersonal experience. Another person I read in this regard had an important role to play in what I would ultimately believe.
I believe we authenticate our uniqueness through constant meeting. It is this constant meeting/I-Thou relating with nature, with art, with people - that gives meaning to life.
Buber taught me to the extent we respond to our own nature, to what is most authentic in us, we live in Spirit.
Like the Native Americans I believe Spirit resides in all living things, and there is even a Spirit in inanimate things as well.
Is there a God? I think our minds structured to think in Kantian categories can't answer that question. Personally, I don't like that word God because of all its baggage. I like how the Native Americans think of it as the Great Spirit, how the Buddhist talk about the Whole...
So what do I believe:
1. I believe in listening to my heart, a feeling of tendency most akin to inspiration. When I think about things - what I think often comes from cultural conditioning.
2. I believe that the best in my life comes from living in Spirit - I-Thou relating with nature, things that deeply interest me, other people.
3. I feel a sense of the sacred in Nature, in I-Thou relationships with other people, inside myself in the form of inspiration/listening to my heart. I like how the Native Americans instead of using the word God talk about The Great Mystery/The Great Spirit.
I withdrew my book, The Search for Being, from publication. It's been a while now that I've had a zen outlook on words. The map is never the territory. As a dominant introverted intuitive I value the nonverbal.
P.S. - I think there is a difference between an "impulse" to do something and an "inspiration." I think an impulse comes from the disowned/repressed/suppressed part of the self that may be unconscious. You have to do it quickly as if to get it past your own censors. I think it comes from internal conflict.
Whereas, an inspiration comes from a place deeper inside you that almost seems not connected to you. When you get that inspiration - it just feels right - consistent with your deepest values, the thing you realize you really want to do when you shut out all those voices of fear and anxiety. I think of it as the voice of your own nature/the Spirit within.
Prays I Can Pray With My Heart In It
I took part of a Novena prayer from the Catholic faith I was raised in, a prayer to the Holy Ghost, and I revised it consistent with my new belief in Native American Spirituality.
Prayer of Petition To The Great Spirit
Dearest Great Spirit, confiding in your deep love for me, I am making this novena for the following request (Mention your request).
Teach me Great Spirit, to know and seek my last end; grant me the love of you in all your creation, grant me true contrition and patience. Do not let me be separate from your Great Spirit love.
Give me an increase of faith, hope, and charity, and bring forth in my soul all the virtues proper to my state of life.
Raise me to perfection in the state of life to which You have called me and lead me through a happy death to everlasting life in the name of the Great Spirit which is the Spirit of All Things.
Great Spirit of light and love, I consecrate to you my understanding, heart, and will, my whole being, for time and for eternity.
May my understanding be always submissive to Your heavenly inspirations.
A Second Prayer
"Peace ...comes within the souls of men when they realize their relationship, their oneness, with the universe and all its powers, and when they realize that at the center of the Universe dwells Wakan-tanka, and that this center is everywhere."
Black Elk, Oglala Lakota tribe
My Introduction to Native American Spirituality came from the book, Meditations with Native American Elders: The Four Seasons by Don L. Coyhis.
The Native American way is to balance the physical, the mental, the spiritual. My development of the mental was the result of years of readings in the area of psychology and psychoanalysis. It was that mental development that has allowed me to successfully cope with the outrage of our Government, U.S. Government Gang Stalking.
More recently, I am focusing on the physical and I have found a gem of a resource, Dr. Rangan Chatterjee, drchatterjee.com. I am a big fan of functional medicine. I'm always buying cookbooks to cook healthier. Perlmutter's The Grain Brain Cookbook is my latest. And I strongly believe in supplements.
And I look for ways to deal with stress. I like EFT Tapping (lots of videos on you tube). I like Self-hypnosis: Self-Hypnosis Home Study Course by Steven Gurgevich, Ph.D. who is associated with Dr. Andrew Weil. And I just discovered this doctor: Dr. Jud, https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCi6bQu-Df7Wh2x3gFT5a8aw via Chatterjee's book, Feel Great Lose Weight.
From Chatterjee's book: "One study, in April 2019, found that when we eat high calorie food while stressed (Do you think being Gang Stalked 24/7 for 15 years could be stressful, in addition, to taking care of a profoundly mentally handicapped person with no self-care skills?) we gain more weight than if we'd eaten exactly the same thing while relaxed and happy."
The Search For Being - Some of the Results of My Spending Years in Reading Psychology and Psychoanalysis
The Search For Being by Bonnie Calcagno
I withdrew it from publication. Just study Native American Spirituality.
America Needs New Values, But Before We Can Get Them We Have To Dismantle The Old.
Values Our Sick Culture Has To Learn To Go Sane:
3. spirituality - transcending ego
4. respect - gained through a willingness to engage in dialogue (not debate), learning real listening
5. the systemic nature of reality - we are not separate from our environment/the Whole
6. the intersubjectivity of relationships - where both are responsible for what transpires
7. respect for individuality, otherness, a willingness to learn the unique language of the other based on their unique life experiences, unique personality
8. the ability to use head as well as heart, sensing as well as intuition
9. the courage to live with holy insecurity
10. the wisdom to see our own narratives as nothing more than the stories we tell ourselves
Sick or Healthy - that is the choice our world/country faces.
At the heart of our very sick culture - that spawns things like Government Gang Stalking, like continuous war - is a sense of powerlessness.
Defenses, which are always there to thwart anxiety whether on the psychological level or the world stage, always come from self-deception, from distortion of reality.
Control, dominate, manipulate - is how people who feel inferior and weak survive in the world, while all the way putting on a bombastic display of strength.
Real strength comes from nature - a recognition of nature in ourselves and in others. We either meet the needs of nature or pay the price.
The needs our sick culture ignores:
1. The need of every person/country to be confirmed.
2. The need of every person/country to express who they are.
3. The need of every person/country to find an environment where they can express what is unique and individual about them.
That's it. That's the formula for inner peace, for world peace.
But what does a sick culture do:
1. Expose its citizens to cooky cutter institutions that manipulate and control and dominate and, and ultimately, make sick.
2. Try to manipulate and control and dominate other countries instead of engaging in dialogue, building bridges, listening before speaking, really listening.
3. Trying to impose conceptions of the good citizen, the good girl and good boy on citizens and imposing penalties/Government Gang Stalking etc. on those who deviate.
4. Trying to lead - which is really another word for dominate, control, manipulate - other countries as if our country was such a shining model for others to follow/as the sick call it - an exceptional nation.
5. Trying to impose a cooky cutter New World Order on people/countries where everyone marches in lock step to the tune set by Elites/the moneyed and politically powerful.
Life or Death - that is the choice before us. Sick culture - or building a healthy one - that is the choice before us. One conforms to the mental conception of the Elites. One conforms to nature.
Life is really pretty simple. It's only the mind of men/women that make it complicated.
Confirm others - find environments where you receive confirmation yourself.
Use dialogue to bridge the gap between one person and another. Sometimes that might require learning the language of the other even when you speak the same language.
The Last Chapter of The Search For Being
Written After It Was Published
My Conception of God
When I graduated elementary school I won the religion award. I was good at memorizing catechism questions. My Roman Catholic religion was important to me. But when my mentally retarded brother was born, things didn’t make sense. I had learned we were made to obey God’s law so we could be happy with him one day in heaven. But my brother would never be able to do that. It was in junior high school that I began to doubt my faith. In high school I didn’t know what I wanted to be, but began to look forward to attending a Roman Catholic college in which I could take theology courses as part of the core curriculum to see if there were an intellectual basis to my waning faith, something to help me to believe again. I went to college, took the courses, but didn’t find what I was looking for. After college my search was on. I would wander the stacks in the library looking for something to believe in. I found Eastern religions. They made more sense to me than my Roman Catholic faith. But it was when I found the psychology section that I found something I could believe in. Psychology for many years became my religion. It showed me how to live my life.
Then in 2002 I was gang stalked. Gang stalking is when a great many people join together to stalk a target. It begins with a conflict with another person. In my case, at first this person got just a few people to use gang stalking tactics to try to make me leave where I was living. In gang stalking lies are spread about a target and a kind of psychological warfare is begun to try to undermine the mental health of the target and to leave him or her so unsettled so as to flee from the situation. But, in my case, I didn’t flee. Just as the ringleader of the gang stalking had his reasons for doing what he did, some from his past, some from the present, I had mine, too. I grew up in a home where I saw, year after year, my father abuse my mother. I had always wanted her to fight back. But she never did. I think back then in my childhood I decided I would never be like her. So I fought the gang stalkers with every bit of creativity I could muster. But as the psychological warfare dragged on, I needed renewal for a sagging spirit. I started to watch the Word Network. And I discovered what to me was a most amazing thing. I made connections in what the preachers I was watching were saying and what I had learned in studying psychology and psychoanalysis. When they talked of the Holy Spirit. I thought unformulated experience. I related what they said to what had become the foundation of my belief system, the different constructions of the various authors in my book, The Search for Being. I had become an atheist. But as I listened I found what I had been looking for earlier in my life, a God I could believe in.
I couldn’t believe in a cosmic papa who reigned in heaven and demanded we obey his law and give him praise to go to heaven after we died. Kant’s ideas that space and time might be in our mind, not in reality, had deprived me of the belief heaven was a place. My study of psychology had resulted in my believing in the narrative self, that we were just the stories we told and subsequently believed about ourselves. I believed in the idea of multiple selves, that we had a multiple subpersonalities. I believed Freud when he said the self was a bodily self. I believed the Buddhist who taught me all was constant change. For me there was no self, just the stories we told about ourself. There were really just physical processes. And as I thought I began to see the concept of God as a correlate of the concept of the Self. I began to see them both as existing on what one of my favorite thinkers, David Bohm, would call the explicate level. I related that to what the Bible called seeing “through a glass darkly”. All our words were feeble attempts to describe an underlying reality. The word “self” was a concept. Now I saw the word “God” was that, too.
When I thought of the Big Bang theory and envisioned the Singularity becoming many, becoming the stuff of an expanding universe, pantheism began to make sense. While I couldn’t believe in the cosmic papa sitting on his throne in heaven and demanding obedience to his will or sending his creation to hell if it disobeyed, I could believe in David Bohm’s wholeness, the Singularity, the one that became the Many. I could conceive of the Wholeness as eternal. But rather than seeing that wholeness as a transcendent other, I saw how the concept of the Holy Ghost so often spoken about by Christian pastors, the concept of unformulated experience enunciated by psychoanalyst Donnel Stern, might be the link to the God within, an immanent God, our participation in that wholeness. I saw us as being a part of the Singularity from which all things came. That for me was the equivalent to the concept of soul. Yet, I could not agree with those who believed they were God. I saw all creation, from the ant to human beings, as participating in being, the being of the Singularity, but no part as being equivalent to the whole, the wholeness of which Bohm spoke, which encompassed all that was. Thus there was a place for humility in my worldview, a demand to listen in Buber’s I-Thou sense to all else that unfolded from the Singularity.
As I listened to the preachers on the Word Network I saw these preachers as fellow introverted intuitives. Dominant introverted intuitives, as I learned in my study of personality type, often become preachers, psychologists etc. I saw the prophets in the Bible as fellow introverted intuitives, too, who used their intuitive gifts to bring forth truths about our world. I felt at home again. The circle was complete. I felt like I finally understood what the religion of my childhood was saying. I had returned home again, but with the insights of an adult. Jesus had said he was speaking in parables to help the people to understand. This implied to me that the intuitive truths he knew, they might not understand. Yes, he was a “son of God,” but they too could participate in wholeness/god through the Holy Ghost. When asked which of the commandments was the most important, Jesus said, “is this: Hear, O Israel, the Lord our God, the Lord is one. Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. The second is this: Love your neighbor as yourself. There is no commandment greater than these. With those words I think Jesus gave us the key to inner peace, to peace on Earth, the greatest ethical system one could have. Our logical minds tell us A is different than B, the world is made up of separate, individual things. Human beings have evolved/survived because we could fight for our self-interest. A goal of psychoanalysis, psychology is a strong ego. But Jesus exhortation said, “For whosoever will save his life shall lose it.” I interpret that as whosoever shall lose his ego, lose his focus on self, self-interest, and identify with the Whole, shall gain it, eternal life. The self is an illusion, a “tale told by an idiot”, only the Whole exists, to understand our participation in the Whole is to gain eternal life. Then we can love our neighbor as ourself. I could not praise a demanding God who required my praise or would send me to hell., but I naturally am filled with praise and awe for each new day, for the beauty of the sky, a tree, a stream. I readily appreciate the miraculous universe that I didn’t create that I am lucky enough to participate in. For me, that is the attitude, the attitude of praise that Jesus spoke of. That attitude of gratitude is the key to peace and happiness, I think.
There might be gang stalkers, there might be the Hitlers, but as I heard pastor Paula White say on the Word Network – “the fight was fixed”, God would win out in the end, even the Earth might pass away, I thought, but the Whole Bohm spoke of would survive. I participated in some small way in that whole. It was that in me, I thought, that was eternal. All the rest was as the Buddhist had said was constant change. I felt a sense of consolation in that.
When I was very young, I remembered sometimes awakening in the night and thinking about what it would be like to die. I felt a deep and trembling anxiety at the thought of my own extinction, at not existing anymore, at the thought of my death. But now I saw things differently. Like the Buddhist I saw the Self as an illusion, a word, a narrative self, a “tale told by an idiot”, the result of seeing “through the glass darkly”. I saw the concept of God like that, too. A word. While Jesus spoke in parables to be understood by the common man as the zen masters (who showed me we could not say, but only point) know, and as Alfred Korzybski taught – the map is not the territory. All our words are pale reflections of the underlying reality which quantum mechanics, which relativity point out is whole, with no separate existing things.
I believe if we want to understand what evil is we have to look at the concept of narcissism. Our evolutionary past has taught us how to survive. We each are motivated mostly by self-interest. If that were not so, we would not have survived. Certainly, altruism, particularly, at the level of our own family, is present, too, and contributed to the survival of the species. But now as I listened to the Word Network, as I experience gang stalking, I realized something else. I began to wonder if evil only exists on the explicate level, if it is a phenomena of otherness. I saw the bible story of Eve eating the forbidden apple can be as the individual usuping the domain of God, the many thinking they do not just participate in some small way in the whole, but, in their narcissism, that they are the whole, they are God. Eating of the tree of knowledge, thinking we are omniscient, exerting our will over that of the Whole, the whole within – that which we must obey because it is the stuff of what we are, the only thing that is, that which inspires rightly awe, at its unknowability, immensity, creative intelligence – that, to me, was the birth of evil, the temptation of the serpent. In our narcissism, each one of us, in pursuing our own self-interest at the expense of otherness bite the apple again. That to me was the original sin. That is the source, I concluded, of the evil of a Hitler, of a gang stalker. Love thy neighbor as thy self, Jesus said. What he did not say is because you are part of me, the Singularity, part of the oneness that is. Above all praise God, feel the sense of awe, the sense of gratitude at the wholeness, which is there for you, which you did not create. I think of the unbelievable beauty those that have seen it talk of in seeing outer space. That is what God means to me now.
So I have come full circle. The little girl who sat in her church amidst stained glass windows and felt a sense of awe, an oceanic feeling amidst the smell of incense from the altar, the organ music. I have found her again. That believer I was then has finally found something she can believe in. The Whole. I am part of that. And so, I guess, I will probably spend the autumn of my life trying to understand the Bible verses, getting beyond the words of my fellow intuitives, to the underlying reality. All my life it was that I tried to understand.
The Next To The Last Chapter of My Book - Learning to BE
Bonnie L. Calcagno’s Perspective
Learning to Be
We could return to our sense of aloneness, Winnicott said, if we needed to start over again. When the empathy for going-on-being was lacking because mother and child had different temperaments or because mother’s mother lacked empathy and mother never experienced going-on-being, then we must become our own project, we must search for being on our own. We must learn to be.
In the last chapter I concluded Being with a capital B is what is. Our participation in that is being with a small b. I think of what is as creative intelligence. We can participate in that at every level, even at the cellular level. The foundation of what we are lies in what Freud called the id or our own primordial memories. The Jungians called it the archetypes. Winnicott called it the bodily ego. We find that, I think, by listening to our feelings, that unconscious part of ourselves which Winnicott spoke of as incommunicable, the source of the spontaneous gesture and the personal idea, an expression of every cell in our body. It is body-functions, Winnicott said, that must form the basis for building up again our body-ego. We are each an electrical-chemical physiological event. First, Winnicott said, we are soma. First there are our emotions, information streaming from the vicera in our body: neuro-psychoanalyst Mark Solm called it “the experiencing me.” Emotions are the signals from the viscera of our body that tell us what has worked from our evolutionary past. They are, Solm’s believes, like instincts, the tendencies for action that worked in the phylogenetic history of the human race for survival. Learning to be involves learning to identify our emotions, becoming sensitive to the feelings in our body that are our reactions to situations in our life. It involves facing our emotions and trusting them, knowing our emotions give us information about the state of our being and can help us figure out what to do for our well-being. I feel anger at violation, researchers in the field tell us, fear and anxiety when threatened, sadness at loss, and pleasure when my needs are met. I feel those things in my body.
From Barbara Ganim, I’ve learned a way to formulate what I feel so I can reflect on it. I do that by focusing my attention inside my body. Then I draw with colored markers, not as an artist would draw, but as a child would draw, what I feel. One drawing was of a feeling that felt all tingly inside like squiggles of electric current coursing throughout my body. Then I thought about my drawing. I related it to what I have learned about emotion, what I think about emotion, and asked myself which of the core emotions could it be – sadness at loss, fear or anxiety at threat, anger at violation, or happiness at getting my needs met. I think about the meaning of what I drew (Bohm said being is meaning – this is my way of understanding my being). I think about the situation my emotion is a reaction to and I decide the relationship I am about to enter feels very threatening to me. My body, I think, remembers the loss of being relationships that felt like this meant in my past, and the action-tendency that accompanies this feeling is to shrink back. I think about this. This person wants me to play a role without regard for who I am. My feeling rebels against that. I decide to put the relationship on hold. When I try to express how I feel to this person, he explodes in anger. I don’t say the right words. My emotions were a signal. But I am just learning to be. Hopefully, through trial-and-error I will learn how to say what I feel, how to express my emotions with greater empathy for the emotional being who is before me. But now as I learn to be, I make mistakes. With thought, with more learning, perhaps, one day I will be able to, as Buber says, meet the Other in-the-between in a way that doesn’t violate either of our being.
But, I think, before that can happen, I have to focus on myself. I am learning to get information from two sources, from inside me, from my body in the form of feelings, and from outside me in the form of sensory information from the outside world. I am learning to focus my attention inside at the state of my body. Mark Solm explained we get global information from inside our bodies through our neurotransmitter system, our hormones, our cerebrospinal fluid that courses through our bodies. I can come to know what I need by listening to my feelings, by focusing my attention on what I feel, on where I am feeling it in my body. I can think about what my feelings mean and try to express them.
As I thought about the relationship whose approach caused me to feel anxiety, I realized I loved this person. But my anxiety was laden with information. It was the me Winnicott spoke of as incommunicable. I could only try to articulate a small portion of what I felt and not in any one-to-one relationship between my feelings and thoughts or words. On reflecting I realized this relationship needed work before I could feel good about entering into it. I couldn’t be what the other person wanted me to be. I remembered a book by Erich Fromm entitled The Art of Loving. He defined love as involving knowledge, respect, care and responsiveness to the needs of another. What I needed from this person was that. What I needed to learn was to be able to give that, too. But I think my working model of relationships made me doubt that could ever be in this relationship. This was a family member and family for me meant “Who’s Afraid of Virginia Wolff” unconsciousness and destructiveness.
From Mark Solm I learned – “An instinct is a prewired way of behaving, reflecting our phylogenetic memories.” I didn’t learn how to behave in response to my anxiety. The behavior was automatic, a pre-programmed way of behaving. I goofed things up in the relationship I was talking about. I tried to express my feelings but failed to think about how my words would be received. I didn’t take into consideration the feelings of the person to whom I was speaking. I didn’t as Buber would say go over to the other side and anticipate my effect, the effect of my words on the other person. I have more to learn about being myself in relationships while still putting myself in the shoes of the other person so I can tailor my remarks to the person I’m speaking with.
Being involves saying as Solm’s puts it – “I am here and I feel this.” Dialogue with another entails not only giving your perspective, but also hearing his or hers and realizing the person you are talking to may be just as inept in handling their feelings as you are in handling yours. The destructive “Who’s Afraid of Virginia Wolff?” scenario comes from our mutual ignorance. Bohm would call it missing the mark. Psychologists use the term emotional regulation to describe how we can do better. We do have multiple selves and in being we can flow from one self to another, not getting stuck in any one way of being, in any one way of emoting, in any one internalized interpersonal configuration. The pattern I learned in my family was “victim-abuser.” The way of being I am seeking to learn is I-Thou relating which has no pattern, only the requirement to give up “seeming.”
To be, I must not just be my instinctual self, or I would be as I was in that relationship, like a bull in a china shop, proceeding in an automatic way without a sense of my environment, of the people and things in the outer world. That’s where reflection comes in. Reflection helps us to restrain our automatic responses. We can stop and think – once we know what we feel – and take account of what we have learned to anticipate outcomes. We have the power to try out things in our mind rather than only acting them out in reality. Yet we must be weary of being too much in the past and the future, too. We must be in the present moment. Be spontaneous. But also be alert to repetitive patterns. Observe ourselves being with others. I have come to see acting things out in reality is a clumsy, global, unconscious form of thinking. Thinking can be more or less differentiated. When I acted so clumsily with that other person by trying to say what I felt, my thinking was undifferentiated. Once I thought more about the situation, perhaps, because I had more to think about, I could refine what I thought. I have come to think beside talking about emotional regulation, we also need to talk about thought regulation. Our thoughts often come from family and culture and are not our own. Thus we must think about our thinking. When we reflect on our thoughts, as well as our emotions, we have a greater chance of being who we really are. Reflection interrupts preprogrammed action, our automatic responses emanating from our primordial memories, but also from the conditioning we learned in family and culture. It has been said that if freedom exists, it exists because of reflection. I think I am free to the extent I can think about my emotional responses, think about my automatic thought or conditioned thought.
What Winnicott called the false self, I think, is just an introjected self, it represents introjected thought, our identification with others.. The Dictionary of Psychology defines introjection as “A process of incorporating external social standards and values into the personality, as a child adopting parental attitudes, or an adolescent adopting the behavior of a peer group.” We can become acquainted with these introjected selves in the form of voices we hear in our heads. We might do something in expressing our bodily self, our feelings, what the action-tendency associated with a feeling impels us to do. Then we might hear an inner voice say – “You’re such a jerk,” in response, for instance, to the relationship mistake I made. That inner voice represents an introject. We need to overwrite that learned voice with the voice of our bodily self or our natural tendencies. We do that by repeating to ourselves, it’s okay to do the action-tendency our feelings impel us to do, and to repeat that to ourselves like a mantra, until it becomes part of us. In my case, that meant saying to myself sotto voce – It’s okay to try to express how I feel. It’s okay to make mistakes, because it’s through my mistakes that I grow. I can be who I am. I can trust my creative intelligence. It’s okay to be myself, my true self. That doesn’t mean we do whatever we feel without thinking. We are our thinking, our creative intelligence, we can trust that. When we feel inner conflict we need to separate our inner voice, the voice of our creative intelligence, from our introjects, our conditioned thought. Our natural action-tendency probably represents our creative intelligence. Our inner critic who judges our action-tendencies harshly may represent a conditioned voice. We need to discern our real inner voice, the voice of creative intelligence, from our conditioned voice. We do this by reflecting on what goes on in our mind, on our thoughts. For me it’s been a process of constantly thinking things over and asking myself who I really am, what I really feel. It’s been the realization we do have multiple selves and need to flow comfortably from one self-state to another, not getting stuck in any one way of being, making mistakes and learning from them, above all constantly learning. These days I think of being as information, information to listen to, to reflect on, to learn from.
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